I am on a roll, I am ticking all the boxes, I should be over the moon- so why am I questioning my hand made venture?
I like to portray a fun, vibrant, cheerful disposition through my work. Making little things for little people just naturally puts a smile on my dial. It is so rewarding and I am continually boosted in confidence by friends who show amazing support and strangers that buy my wares and share such wonderful pictures and stories.
But I have been shaken, my confidence has a massive dent and I am just not sure how to repair it. I would like to keep moving forward and spread the Hoodie Vest joy everywhere (amongst other things i like to create) but as a result of bumps and bruises over the past month, my onward and upward goal is feeling slightly fractured.
I am asking myself, why I am pursuing all this - the time, the hardwork, time less spent with kidlets - in a very competitive world of handmade amazingness?
I started this journey years ago out of the satisfaction of being able to create unique and fun stuff for my girls. So I decided to revisit that last night. Since some dusty pink bear fur was donated to me, my daughter has wanted a fluffy vest. Fake fur vests are everywhere at the moment and I am not particularly partial to them - but she asked and so I made it and she loves it (as she does everything her mum makes her).
As for the confidence, maybe i just need to step back and get some fresh air & get my head out of all the fog. Maybe it's hormones (I am only woman), maybe it's the school holidays exhaustion or maybe even due to the very quick catchup with some friends and family in our former home town which has left me with a bucket of emotion.
Who knows.
So we're taking a walk.
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